Dear Diary | What am I supposed to do?

Hi there!

Before I start writing in my diary, I would like to explain this a little bit. I came up with this because blogging actually stands for talking about your day and personal life experiences. Actually, I have never really done something like this before so in this section I will be talking about my personal life, the choices that I make and the experiences that I’m going through. I am also doing this for people who could relate to some of my personal experiences, just to let them know that they are not the only on going through this. I hope you will be respecting and accepting for what I’m doing and if not, do not comment or read my diaries. Lots of love, Jaychi.

Dear diary,

I don’t really know where to start right now. So, I’ll just start with the school part. I’m actually really nervous about school lately, because I’m in my testweek right now (I should be learning….) and this testweek is so important to me. I’m right now  in my 4th year of secondary school (I think this is junior) and I still have 1 year to go until I’ll be done with school. I really need to pass this testweek to be in my last year or else I’ll be 1 year without school. Of course, that sounds nice, but I’m still young and I don’t have any certificate so I’ll probably end up without having a career and working my whole life in a restaurant or clothing store. I don’t want that. I’m a ambitious person and I want to have a career! The reason that I really want to go to school is not because of me having an asian background, it is just me as a person who wants a career and don’t want to end up in a restaurant nor any other low paid job my whole life.

So, the only subject that I really need to get a good grade for is music and Monday I made my music test and just yesterday I came to find out about my grade. Unfortunately, the grade that I got wasn’t good enough to get me in to my last schoolyear so I have to drop out of school. I had the opportunity to go to a lower level school, but I don’t want that. I’m happy where I am right now and I really want to go to my last year so that I can finally be done with my secondary school life. I’m almost 18 right now and I really need to get away from the secondary school. I should be in college right now.

So, at the moment that I realize that I couldn’t get in to my last year I immediatly emailed my teacher about this and I have asked if he could do something about it or let me redo this year. I really hope he could give me a positive result so that I still will have a chance of getting in to my last year and be finally done with my secondary school life.

I’m kind of in this position right now where my life can’t turn out how I want it to be. I really hope that my luck will be with me through this so let’s hope for the best, diary!




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