dear diary

Dear diary | new opportunities


Dear diary,

Lately, there has been a lot going on as I have told you in the last 2 posts. I am so happy and lucky right now, because I got accepted for the special study that I was doing. This is school related again, haha, but you know how it goes in Asian families. School is very important and since my parents are like that I get a lot of stress from it so I need to let it all out and that’s where I got my diary for.

I really can’t believe that god or who ever it is still gives me the chance to have a better education and I’m really grateful for it. The first time I failed, but I didn’t really want to do it at first. I just did it because my parents want me to do it, but know I chose it myself and I got really lucky that I still got the chance and this time I will not fail again! This time I will be working hard and get my diploma for it!

Actually, I can’t really tell much about this, just that I’m very happy and so lucky to be getting the chance for the second time. Next to this I don’t really have anything else going on in my life to be honest. Unfortunately, I’m not going anywhere this summer, but I’m really excited because my grandma is coming over to the Netherlands! Probably I will going to Italy with my little brother and my grandma, but that’s still not for sure yet. I will be going around in the Netherlands with her. Just going here and there and guide her a little bit around. Now that I’m older I feel like I can take the responsibilities to take her to cool and nice places to look and to eat, haha.

Anyways, there’s nothing much left to say so I’ll be closing this part as that I’m very happy and lucky!

Loves,

Jaychi


Hi guys! I’m so excited that my grandma is coming over and I’m so luck! I hope that you liked this post and let me know what you all will be doing in the summer!

Loves,

Jaychi

“Enjoy and live!”

Dear Diary | Are we friends?


Dear diary

Lately, I have a few problems with my friends. It’s not physically, but a bit more emotionally. In the beginning of our friendships we were very close and our group started to grow and contained more and more friends. We became a big group of friends which exist of 8 people, but now as we all grow older I have a feeling that the group is breaking apart and the most of my friends is leaving. I don’t know if it is just myself being a little too overconcerned or is it true that this is happening. I don’t really mind if it happens, but the situation where it is now is kind of weird, because I don’t know if we still are a group of friends or that everyone is going their own way and we just speak time to time.

Not too long ago a few friends of mine graduated, but they didn’t invite me to the graduation ceremony, that gives me a feeling that I’m left behind or that you don’t want to be friends with me anymore, but the worst part is that my friend did invite other friends. I don’t mind about that, but you should have asked me at least, because that gives me a feeling that you still thought of me as a friend. We have been friends for almost 6 or 7 years already. I could have said no and I think I would have said no, because I was in my testweek.

I don’t really know what I should be thinking about this right now. It kind of affected my life and myself a bit. So, I don’t really care about them at the moment cause I have my own things to worry about. So, my testweek is done and I have to wait for my results. I have also mailed my teacher about the situation and he have sent my email further to a teacher who has a higher position and he will be making the final decision. I have also registered for a special study as the one I am doing right now, but then in 1 year instead of 2. This study is basically harder, because what I am learning in 2 years, I’ll be learning in 1 year. I really hope that I can redo my year or join that special study. That is my biggest concern at the moment.

Loves,

Jaychi


Thank you for reading one of my personal stories again! I hope you all will still like this 😀

Loves,

Jaychi

“Enjoy and live!”

Dear Diary | What am I supposed to do?


Hi there!

Before I start writing in my diary, I would like to explain this a little bit. I came up with this because blogging actually stands for talking about your day and personal life experiences. Actually, I have never really done something like this before so in this section I will be talking about my personal life, the choices that I make and the experiences that I’m going through. I am also doing this for people who could relate to some of my personal experiences, just to let them know that they are not the only on going through this. I hope you will be respecting and accepting for what I’m doing and if not, do not comment or read my diaries. Lots of love, Jaychi.


Dear diary,

I don’t really know where to start right now. So, I’ll just start with the school part. I’m actually really nervous about school lately, because I’m in my testweek right now (I should be learning….) and this testweek is so important to me. I’m right now  in my 4th year of secondary school (I think this is junior) and I still have 1 year to go until I’ll be done with school. I really need to pass this testweek to be in my last year or else I’ll be 1 year without school. Of course, that sounds nice, but I’m still young and I don’t have any certificate so I’ll probably end up without having a career and working my whole life in a restaurant or clothing store. I don’t want that. I’m a ambitious person and I want to have a career! The reason that I really want to go to school is not because of me having an asian background, it is just me as a person who wants a career and don’t want to end up in a restaurant nor any other low paid job my whole life.

So, the only subject that I really need to get a good grade for is music and Monday I made my music test and just yesterday I came to find out about my grade. Unfortunately, the grade that I got wasn’t good enough to get me in to my last schoolyear so I have to drop out of school. I had the opportunity to go to a lower level school, but I don’t want that. I’m happy where I am right now and I really want to go to my last year so that I can finally be done with my secondary school life. I’m almost 18 right now and I really need to get away from the secondary school. I should be in college right now.

So, at the moment that I realize that I couldn’t get in to my last year I immediatly emailed my teacher about this and I have asked if he could do something about it or let me redo this year. I really hope he could give me a positive result so that I still will have a chance of getting in to my last year and be finally done with my secondary school life.

I’m kind of in this position right now where my life can’t turn out how I want it to be. I really hope that my luck will be with me through this so let’s hope for the best, diary!

Loves,

Jaychi


 

Did you guys enjoyed this? Let me know in the comments below. I’m thinking about doing this more frequent!

Loves,

Jaychi

“Enjoy and live!”